This is written by you, quite a while ago. I can't help it, reading it makes me understand, deep down inside, the guy you are. I've never wanted you more than this, i'm all over you, i'm crazy over you, i can't help it. You tripped me without even realising, i fell and still faling, waiting for your arms to catch me, and maybe i can just grasp you tightly in my arms and never let you go. Hold onto your scent and look into your eyes, silence carry over our shoulders but it doesn't mater, i know what you're thinking, you know what i'm thinking, let's just make it happen. This is my fantasy. Nothing but building castle in thin air, the thin polluted air with all the particles and carbon monoxide that confused my thoughts and made the whole world a haze, till i can't see you gaze, or intepret your thoughts. I can't help but think, who's this girl that caught your heart...i so wish it was me, but that is just impossible. Still hope to get to know you better and find out who this girl is.
You wrote:
It feels awkward, yet heart-warming
To have these sincere feelings, for you
How do I deal with this belief?
I can't even think straight writing this,
It is all but a cloud of thoughts and dreams
Of me wishing that i could tell you
How much you mean to me right now, and
How I would do anything in the world
For you to notice me in the way i noticed
In you.
It's just.. I'm lost for words when i see you,
And I'm too afraid to look into your eyes.
But just having you nearby makes me smile.
In every moment, you're always there in my mind
as the first thought early in the morning
to the last going to bed at night.
It's everything about you that
I admire so much
and have the highest respect for.
So ______, you're my princess...
What I'm saying here is the truth..
Because I've never been so into a girl as much as you
Yet I cannot go any furthur..
Because deep inside, I know it wouldn't work,
Nor will it ever happen..
Just knowing that pierces my heart and empties it.
I can't count how many sleepless nights i've had
With me sitting there, silently in sorrow
All I can do is wish you for the best, and as long
As you're happy, I'll be happy too.
I hate that I'll have to put on this mask,
To pretend that this is all but a hope and a dream.
But, in reality.. it is..
We can't be anything more..
Nothng more than just.. friends.
~who's this girl~